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I am soul excited & honored to share my TRUTH with you today, Reader. This Transmission feels paramount to how the rest ov my LIFE will unfold. But before I get into it, I'd like to set the tone with a very heartfelt reminder that I LOVE you. You are not alone. You are powerful. You are divine. I honor you. Happy tears stream down my face as I type these words, and they will undoubtedly continue to flow as I share my TRUTH with you. My heart has been blasted open. I am a raw, vulnerable, honest projector ov LOVE. The tears ov joy & the smile on my face won't ease up and I am embracing the beauty ov it ALL.

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Last Friday, as I mentioned in my last Transmission, I caught a train to Portland to do something momentous during the Aries stellium on the New Moon.... I traveled to have a one-on-one bufo ceremony with my friend, Kaylie.

For those ov you that do not know, bufo (5-MeO-DMT) is the strongest psychedelic medicine presently known to mankind. It is referred to as "The GOD Molecule," and is derived from milking the back glands ov live Sonoran Desert Toads. It isn't the super visual, machine-elf kind ov DMT that you are likely familiar with. It is stronger than that. Thank you, magic toad. I honor you.

My friend Kaylie stepped into her purpose as an entheogen facilitator after the toad medicine altered the entire trajectory ov her LIFE. She created a supremely beautiful, tranquil and comfortable ceremony space for me. I trusted her every step ov the way and she showed me so much gentle support and kindness throughout my earth-shattering experience. She welcomed me into her colorful home with her sweet, cuddly dogs and we had the best couple ov daze together.

I showed up to ceremony with the humble intention that I would gain some insight and clarity regarding my path. As I mentioned in Transmission #27, I had been feeling really uncertain about how I will manage to financially support myself off ov my creative endeavors now that I have stepped away from the alcohol industry. My heart was seeking answers about the feasibility ov my DREAM and the stability ov my future. I asked that the medicine cleared any energetic blockages or pernicious thought patterns keeping me from stepping fully into my power.

I smoked the medicine three times. The first 40mg didn't grant me the ability to breakthrough. Nothing happened. Five minutes after smoking it I tapped my fingers together, signaling that I wanted more, as it was obvious I hadn't gone anywhere. Another 40mg ov inhaled toad medicine and I was finally able to drop my ego, leave my body, and breakthrough to a glimpse ov the infinite.

Ov course, it is impossible for me to comprehensively quantify and document what I witnessed beyond the veil using our limited human language. There really are no words to do the experience justice, but I will do my very best to briefly distill its essence into written form.

I was catapulted back into the celestial palace I once visited when Justin and I accidentally each ate 30 hits ov LSD in overdosed sugar cubes on Christmas 7 y-eras ago. I was back up there in the cool clubhouse with ALL my soulmates. My soulmates, ancestors and guardians gathered around for my "initiation." Everyone congregated to be a witness to my great A-HA moment. Smilingly and lovingly they held space as I GOT THE JOKE. I let out an Earth-shattering cackle. I laughed so hard I felt it at the depth ov my soul. Every cell in my body was laughing in somatic tandem at the beauty and hilarity ov it ALL. I cackled and sobbed and cackled and sobbed some more.

I was in complete gnosis that I was born for the work my heart yearns to do. ALL my prayers were ALREADY answered and ALL my DREAMS had already been granted. This gathering was like a cosmic surprise party to give me the best prezzie I could ever receive: The gnosis that the entire universe was created for me/us to LIVE our DREAMS and follow our bliss. ALL the pain and suffering I endured was part ov the equation and education. It was ALL so beautiful and perfect and hilarious. Kaylie said I kept repeating "*cackle* DUH, DUDE! *cackle* DUH, DUDE! *cackle* DUH, DUDE!" as well as "Welcome. Welcome to my initiation. Welcome to my initiation."

Everything that has happened in my LIFE was leading me to that great A-HA moment.

I understood that we do not NEED the planets to align or to wait for permission. EVERY MOMENT, EVERY BREATH is an opportunity to express our TRUTH, multiply our LOVE, and connect with GOD. EVERY MOMENT is an opportunity for self-initiation. We are the undoubtable architects ov our own realities. We do not need spiritual talismans, churches, gurus, ministers, candles, crystals, malas, Bibles, rituals, spells or any ov the religious, occult, or New Age accoutrement in order to be tapped into GOD. GOD is truly omnipresent and omnipotent. I know I have been saying this for y-eras, but EVERYTHING TRULY IS GOD! I will never judge someone for the tools they use or the paths they walk in order to know GOD, but it was so obvious to me that none ov it is really necessary. Simply BEING is an expression ov GOD. You couldn't escape GOD even if you tried. YOU ARE GOD.

Justin was there in my celestial palace, sitting in lotus pose, with his signature smirk, telepathically telling me, "See, Hannie. I told you don't need to do anything to know GOD." A call back to Earth-Justin reminding me that I really didn't NEED to have a bufo experience and "take drugs" to see GOD because GOD is ALWAYS accessible. Despite knowing he was right, I was still called to "take the shortcut." Despite his TRUTH being validated, I am soul grateful I took the rocket-launch quick-path and was viscerally reminded how Great GOD is.

I also saw Father Bronques present and smiling in my celestial soul pod. He has been such a positive influence on me throughout two very pivotal points in my LIFE. I know that we will work together in some capacity to further the fruition ov my DREAMS. He is a fire-starter and unafraid ov living & breathing ARTE. He is someone who has fully stepped into their unique essence and is living his total TRUTH. Our creative work together is not complete.

I understood that Alienbroadcast Transmissions is a key facet ov how I will make my DREAMS come true. I AM meant to share my honesty and creative expression with the world. There WILL be a book. The seeds have already been planted. My prayers have already been answered. This doesn't mean there isn't work to be done. Nay, quite the opposite. I must integrate and sustain my epiphany into embodied action. No TIME to sit around worrying if I am capable or not. I KNOW that I AM.

Aghori Baba Paglananda was another figure present for my initiation. He is the Aghori I met in the cremation grounds during Shivaratri in 2009 while Genesis and I were in Nepal to perform puja for Lady Jaye. Gen knew Aghori Baba Paglananda from many y-ears prior and we ventured out to find him on that fated, February, festival day. With the help ov Trilochan, Gen's Nepali soul-brother, we were able to track him down to a temporary ashram he created out ov a small, stone tomb in the cremation grounds. We ducked in and sat around an ashy pit where Aghori Baba Paglananda was in a deep trance. His eyes were rolled so far back into his skull that we could only see the whites ov them. Trilochan translated what the loin-clothed Aghori was wildly ranting as he addressed everyone in attendance. To me he said: "My child, you will reach the highest state ov consciousness in this LIFETIME."

Aghori Baba Paglananda was at my celestial palace because he planted the seed in my mind that I would somehow reach the highest state ov consciousness, a feat which seemed simply impossible at the TIME. He was there to welcome me to my initiation with a smile that lovingly exuded a kind, "See, sister? Welcome!"

I came back from my soul palace vision still cackling and sobbing. There was nothing scary or challenging about my experience. It was full ov LOVE and support and gave me ALL the answers I was seeking. After some TIME spent talking to Kaylie about my experience I asked to go deeper. I felt like since I was still in the "Hannah Haddix story" that I didn't fully break through to the infinite ONE. I wanted to fully be with GOD without my ego story attached to it, now that I had the answers to my Earth-Hannah inquiries. She kindly obliged and I chose to increase my dose to 60mg.

This TIME, I was out ov body before achieving the full suggested 10 count to hold the smoke in my lungs. Kaylie said I let out a cloud ov toad smoke and fell back mere seconds after my 13 second inhale. I was completely gone. I "whited-out," as they say. I have no mental recollection ov what I experienced while I was out that TIME. Kaylie said I was thrashing back and forth, legs shaking, cackling and crying. I kept saying "Thank You GOD, Thank You GOD, Thank you, Thank you, Thank you," "JAI MA! JAI MA!" and "LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE."

I came back to Earth face down, sobbing in a puddle ov drool and repeating "You just have to LOVE people, Hannah. You just have to LOVE people. Just LOVE. Just LOVE." Kaylie put a blanket over me as I sobbed the most cleansing and heartfelt cry. I felt unprecedented popping sensations around my heart that felt like my body making room for the expansion ov my heart bloom. I do not know what I experienced that TIME, but I came back with the undeniable gnosis that LOVE is ALWAYS the answer and that there are no obstacles too great for its power.

I know that the visions and epiphanies I had are not unique or special. They are universal. Some would even say "cliche." I saw GOD and I GOT THE JOKE, but that doesn't make me a messiah or a Saint or any better than anyone else. I took a magnesium-fire shortcut and it was profoundly effective, but I know the experience does not make me extraordinary.

I am humble and I am grateful and I honor ALL GOD's children no matter what path they are on. I know there is a lot ov work ahead, but it is work that excites me because it is my calling. The perfection ov the Universe and the infinite Nature ov LOVE floors me. There is a red carpet rolled out from the center ov my open heart leading me to my actualized DREAMS.

And no, I didn't see my future. Why would the Great Architect ruin the surprise for me? Figuring it out along the way and seeing the magic unfold in REALTIME is what LIFE is ALL about. I didn't see my future, I simply understood that I am entirely capable ov creating the LIFE my heart yearns to LIVE. I gained insight into just HOW cosmically supported I am. I fully realized that I already have ALL the tools I need to spend my LIFE contributing to & worshiping in the Cathedral ov ARTE. One is not meant to simply glimpse a TRUTH as big as the one I witnessed; one is meant to EMBODY that TRUTH. There is no power in realization alone. It is the action that follows that counts.

Since we are ALL individuated unique expressions ov the unified ONE, we each have our own special genius and divine mission in this LIFETIME. We must stop outsourcing our power and our TRUTH. Only YOU know the path that is right for you. Know thyself and BE thyself. You already have everything you need within. YOU are the ONLY ONE who has the answers for YOU. Your heart knows. Just listen. Turn off your devices and sit in silent, sober awareness. Ask your heart. Talk to GOD. Or don't! I am here to share MY TRUTH, not to tell you yours!

I could yammer on and tell you about ALL my epic, otherworldly DREAMS, or how I have been waking myself up every night humming outlandish mantras, or how I made chicken soup from scratch for the first TIME and shared it with my neighbor, or go into detail about the beautiful interactions I've had with numerous strangers this past week... but I am going to say farewell for now.

Thank you for your TIME. I really appreciate you taking a few minutes to read my musings about GOD and looking at my ARTE. It is an honor to share my TRUTH with you. And you know what, Reader? If our TRUTHS do not align, I LOVE you just the same. I honor you wherever you are and however you choose to experience reality. Your path is yours to walk. I am not here to judge your perspective. I relish the diversity in GOD'S creation and ALL the ways humans interpret GOD'S shadow. You do you, friend. I'll just be over here choosing LOVE, hugging my Teddy bear & laughing at the stars.

BIG LOVE

GOLD BLESS YOU

JAI KALI MA!

YOUR FRIENDLY CYBERHOOD NEIGHBOR,

P.S. On the 21st ov April the dapper, kind & uber-talented Gregg Foreman dropped his body. I dedicate this song to you, Gregg. A little diddy from your favorite band. It was cool to experience your light in this LIFETIME. Gratitude & Respect.

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